Solutions- Solved- Obsession

Unwilling obsession-
Constant regression,
Wanting out,
Escape this depression-
Hurting yourself, everyone else.
Addictive tendencies, So very well known- creating solutions as your mind roams.
Sleeping aid, less weight gain, obsessions in higher doses, yet all the while- staying the same.
You'v announced a problem, i have the solution.
Digging yourself out of the hole you yourself had created,
Getting on top, hoping you'v made it.
Only then does it all collapse,
Another addiction another relapse.
Happiness mistaken, Pain momentarilly overtaken.
Willingly i go, No longer known as a regression,
Watch as my solutions become my obsessions.

Addictive Instincts.

To tired to sleep,
Addicted im afraid.
Immune to your ways.
An unwanted sign of crash and burn.
I like to keep myself this way,
Mellowed and Hollowed,
Above my own game,
My plans unlikely to be followed.
I swear ill quit tomorrow.
Tomorrow would be the day-
Mellowed and Hollowed once again,
Addicted im afraid.